Nothing doing

Enjoying uni holidays, spending some fun time with my favourite guys, and trying really, really hard to stop stressing about uni results.

And failing.

I’m turning myself inside out with checking my email 15 Brazilian times a day. My peace studies lecturer posted today that essay results would be available “very soon”, but I fear he is just messing with my head.

Concentrating a bit more on Inigo, and how he is coping is reaping rewards, with less meltdowns and more cuddles and giggles. The last 12 months has been really very difficult for my beautiful guy. As I begin to cope better with day to day life, I am giving more and more to him. I hate that as well as losing his brothers, he also lost his mama for so long. Yesterday, he mentioned my friend that is no longer in our lives (by her choice). She made Inigo a wall hanging for Inigo’s first birthday, and he has lost some pieces off it. Yesterday he asked me if she didn’t want to see us because she was angry at him.

Breaks my heart.

Red Nose Day

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After Archie and Aubrey were born, a grief counsellor from SIDS & Kids came to our house to talk to me. SInce then I’ve been seeing her on and off pretty regularly, and I credit Marybeth with a lot of the progress I have made. Without her, and SIDS & Kids, I hesitate to think where I would be now.

I used to think that all they did was fund medical research into SIDS, but of course they do much more than that. Since SIDS awareness campaigns have massively reduced SIDS deaths, now the bulk of their work is with bereaved families after the loss of a baby or child. They also offer counselling to women who have had miscarriages, and terminations.

While looking for ways I can help out (it’s Red Nose Day this Friday, buy a nose!), I found this website. Renault is donating a dollar (up to $15,000) for every person that uploads a pic to the red nose gallery. Visit rednoseme.com, and upload your own pic – SIDS & Kids will earn a dollar, and you’ll get a silly photo.

Semester 1. Done!

Exam finished at 11 today, and my semester is over except for waiting for results. I’ll get the unofficial exam results in about three weeks, and from there I should be able to extrapolate (or even calculate) my final grade for PSYC101.

And my essay results for PEAC102 should be winging their way to me within a couple of weeks, so I should be mostly out of my misery by mid July.

I am also hoping to be well into the books again by then too – last semesters enrolment hiccups meant delays with access, delays with textbooks, and a horrible start to the year. This semester I am going to be at least 2 weeks ahead of my readings before the start of term.

Especially since the first cab off the rank in psych 102 is stats. Bleurgh.

Whatever else happens after I get my results, I fell proud of what I have achieved this year. I made a crazy life changing decision on a whim, and I pulled it off. I hope all my boys would be proud of their mama.