Two days ago, during my weekly checkup, my doctor found only one heartbeat. One of my babies had died since my last checkup.
Again I was offered a termination. I asked if the risks for me were significantly increased, and since they are not, I declined.
Apparently I will either go into labour and deliver both babies, or the dead baby will re-absorb, and the pregnancy will continue. Who knows for how long, but I have to take the chance.
At least we dont need to buy a people mover now, right?
Although the natural thing to do would be to howl at the moon, get horribly drunk, and delve into hysteria, Ive chosen to keep it together for the time being, while I still have a live baby to gestate.
Just dont ask me how I am.
Disco Knitter 
No words.
Just tears and hugs.
xoxo
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Oh….. and I hope youll get a tiny bit of release when I howl at the moon, get horribly drunk and delve into hysteria for you. xoxo
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sending hugs and love. continually.
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Sending as much love as the internets can handle. ❤
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So sorry for you sweetie… *hugs, hugs and more hugs*
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Oh Lara, I’m so sorry to hear that. Sending you lots of love and hugs.
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I am thinking of you. I’ve told mum what’s happening, and she is keeping hope in her heart for you.
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*Hugs*
Some years ago an acquaintance was pregnant with twins when one died (I dont remember the details but it was early, perhaps this early). She maintained the pregnancy for ages – one child was born alive but premature (hes probably now in primary school), the other was stillborn. So yes theres hope…
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I’m thinking of you. I know your pain. Here’s hoping like crazy that you have one healthy baby at the end of this.
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Much love to you, Mark and Inigo. Would you like me to come over again? You have my number. I won’t impose, but you know if you’d like someone to come by (and bring food?) just let me know, ok?
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Oh, so sorry. Big hugs.
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Stay strong little one.
Sending you all our love
XX
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Im so sorry. Love to you all.
xx
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Im sorry.
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Lots of love from us both up over. You are strong, woman, doing so well xxx
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Thinking of you and your family, and hoping for the best. Xox
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Oh Lara Im so sorry to read this update *big hugs* If you are still on bedrest and would like company please let me know.
xxx Fi
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Ive personally been part of a care team for a woman who had this happen and birthed a live baby at 30 weeks by c-section. Perhaps contact the Womens and Childrens Hospital in Adelaide and speak to the maternal-fetal medicine midwife about it, if you want some more information.
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Lara, Im so sorry. My heart aches for you and Mark. Youre in my thoughts and prayers.
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