One of the worst days ever
They couldn’t get the catheter in. A nurse tried twice, and then they asked me if the should try again. I said yes, wanting to avoid bringing him back. He was so desperate, panicked and in pain, wondering why his mama was holding him down so they could torture him.
I said yes, and the doctor had a go, and she failed too. And when the catheter came out, it had blood on it.
All afternoon he was spontaneously screaming, while tears rolled silently down my cheeks, and I fought to maintain composure and a soothing calm manner. I sang his favourite songs until my throat was raw.
Eventually, he fell asleep, and aside from a temperature early this morning, is acting as if nothing happened.
And I’m a wreck. I don’t know if my immune system was weakened by the extreme stress of yesterday, or whether I was due for it anyway, but my throat is on fire, and my head is full of snot.
I think I’ll take a day off life.
Oh, and we have to go back on Thursday.
June 20th, 2009 at 11:35 am
Oh F&ck!!! F&ckity f&ck f&ck f&ck!!
I’m SOOOO sorry for ALL of you. Watching your baby suffering while you have to stand by and encourage the continuation of the suffering is just unbearable.
Toto was hospitalised for rotorvirus when he was about 18 months old. We had the same issue with the IV line. They just couldn’t get it in. I had to soothe him with tears rolling down my cheeks.
And then, earlier this year, I had the same thing with Boo when he had the stitches in his lip with no effective pain relief.
Agony.
(((((((((( HUGS ))))))))))
I guess this is the worst of the parenting malarky.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxxo
June 20th, 2009 at 6:21 pm
many hugs for you and iggy. it’s up there with the most unbearable things in the world.
June 20th, 2009 at 11:14 pm
Oh, so sorry it was like that Lara.
Well done for being that grown up parent who made the situation as easy as poss for HIM and helped him stay as calm as could be in the situation.
Horrible, big hugs, thinking of you +++
June 21st, 2009 at 8:55 am
I agree with Emily – he can trust you to make the right decisions – even when those decisions will hurt him, Blaise had to have 5 people hold her down everytime they took blood, it was shit, now she is 18 and getting her blood tests alone happily.
love and hugs to you guys x x x
June 21st, 2009 at 9:00 am
Lara, I’m so sorry. I hope and pray it goes better next time.
June 21st, 2009 at 12:26 pm
Oh, how absolutely horrible for you both. Big hugs and best wishes to you both now and for Thursday.
June 21st, 2009 at 8:35 pm
Crap. How bloody horrid. I’m so sorry you both had to go through this.
June 21st, 2009 at 11:04 pm
I’m sorry. There is just nothing that compares to holding your child while someone does something painful and distressing to them, especially when they’re too young to understand why. I’m really sorry you have to go back, and will be hopinghoping it goes to plan second time around.